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Unfinished Business
On the drive home tonight a comment made by Doc clicked with a comment I had made to Matt to come up with an interesting realization (believe me, interesting was not the first phrase that came to mind). For as long as I remember my dad has been angry and expressed that anger verbally and [...]
Emotional Overload
Writers go through periods of writer’s block. I believe that people working on their emotions also go through emotional blocks – periods of emotional overload. My overblown responses to situations this last week told me that I needed to work on something but I could not put my finger on just what. So I bring [...]
Who am I?
I am your constant companion. I will push you forward to success or I will drag you down to failure. I am completely at your command. 80% of what you do, you might as well hand over to me and I will do it promptly and I will do it correctly. I am easily managed; [...]
Self Worth
What other people think about me and the value they place on me has always been very important. It was the only way that I could accept that I was a valuable person. In order to make me invaluable, I never said no and spent all of my time learning and mastering new skills. Instead [...]
Hope in Failure
Another restless night in a string of many restless nights. Tonight do I decide to stay in bed and toss and turn until dawn, break down a take a sleeping pill to find the peace to sleep through the night, or take the time to do the soul searching to find the truth in the [...]
Anger
Anger has been the most difficult emotion for me to accept. Mostly because I did not understand the difference between anger and the anger/fear combination of my experiences. Fear that my father’s anger and physical abuse would be directed at me. Fear of the anger and physical abuse directed at me by my mother. Fear [...]
Depression and Grief
This has been a week of bouncing between high highs and low lows. Today I reached a point where I have just had enough. I am tired of making decisions. I am tired of questioning my own motives. I am tired of interacting with people. I am tired of wearing the masks. I am tired [...]
The Guest House
By Jelaluddin Rumitranslated by Coleman Barks in his book *Essential Rumi* This being human is a guest house.Every morning a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness,some momentary awareness comesas an unexpected visitor. Welcome and entertain them all!Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,who violently sweep your houseempty of its furniture,still, treat each guest [...]
Beliefs
This morning my daughter came to me looking very sad and scared. She had heard from her boyfriend that his mother had cancer and she wanted to know what I could tell her about the disease. I could tell by her comments and actions that she had accepted this diagnosis as a death sentence and [...]
Rescuing Myself
I went to the New Directions workshop this weekend as an assistant and had no conscious plans on anything I wanted to work on for myself. I think I knew that by assisting this weekend that I would gain something. And just like the first time through this workshop, I am surprised by what it [...]
Pandora’s Box
There are times that I just know that I need to write about. Coincidences don’t just happen, I am really believing that it is a message that I need to hear. Last week while driving home I was thinking about the changes I have been through in the last two years and how it reminded [...]
Letting Go
When my parents divorced, I was thirteen and my sister was eleven. My Dad was working overseas and was gone 9 months out of the year and then resettled in another state with his new wife when he returned. When Mom wasn’t locked away in her room, she was out with one boyfriend [...]
Write Your Own Rules
Dr. Wayne Dyer when accepting his Einstein award defined the Philosophy of Relativity to the audience by commenting on his baldness. Dr. Dyer is almost completely bald but stated that if you found the same amount of hair in a bowl of soup that it would be a lot of hair. [...]
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